you know, i told you once that I wasn't in love with you. i thought what else explains this feeling of freedom in my chest when you told me you didn't love me back? i have the right words now. there is nothing so soft or so cruel as a heart who thinks love … Continue reading
I guess I still love you because at night you call my name and I come running
You're with me at night sometimes you seem to miss me mostly, you seem far away someone else's girl a ship without a sail at morning's first light in my new apartment i ask you to stay someone else's girl but you never do, a ship without a sail.
we hate each other because we are the same. you show me what years of trying to love someone who is out of reach feels like without realizing that you are your father's daughter. the ache our fathers created in us live in every anxious cling or turn like slippery rocks, smooth and wet from … Continue reading two hunters
i'm thinking of the scars that bullet wounds can leave if love, lost was a bullet my skin would only be scars
"it's breaking my heart" you tell me, as if your heart was mine for the breaking to begin with. no, my heart is breaking, has been since I gave it to you in the middle of the night when I was sleeping. yours has been shattered, in pieces, long before I came into … Continue reading to give your heart away
some day I will learn to water the plants before sunset some day the succulent in my windowsill will thrive. i am still growing accostomed to desert life.
my body asks before it is ready. always. i learn to temper hunger with will. she is needy and infantile and i love her.
i miss the way that solitude felt before i loved you
thirst speaks of the god in all of us for without a drop (only coffee, wine, juice, tea) we still seek water, purity.